Heart Break

Going through a heart break can be really devastating especially when it’s the very last thing you ever expected. Come to think of it, does the heart really break? Literally, No but it does more than that. I think the heart really bruises else why do I feel the pain I am feeling? Not been feeling well ever since the breakup. I feel like I am never ever going to get past this feeling. Can I even trust again? I wonder. How can you hurt someone that loves you so much? Someone you claim to love? Does love really exist? I begin to wonder. Have you been hurt by a lover and instead of hating on him, you still tell yourself, ‘ I still love him’. How pitiable that sounds but it’s the truth still. I really don’t want to love again like this because I don’t think I can go through something like this ever again. The tears won’t stop falling and my eyes feel so sore from all the silent tears. So many things happening to me all at the same time. Dear God, please grant me the grace to go through this and come out stronger. I Do believe in love and will always Do. I am going through the process of healing. It is indeed a slow process as sometimes even when you think you have put certain thoughts behind you, they still come back to haunt you. Trying to learn to forgive myself and accept that it wasn’t any fault of mine. I am not going to change to become the kind of person I am not just because some dude could not appreciate a beautiful heart when he saw one. As for Trust, I really don’t know but Time will tell and Time will Heal.